Creativity or mediocrity?

I'm having a grey day today. Heavy and grey sky may have something to do with it, but it may also be where I'm at. Starting this creative journey feels a lot like doing a detox or throwing up a hairball. What comes out is not pretty.So what I'm feeling about what I am producing or trying to produce is that its off the mark. Probably mediocre. I've been experimenting with different approaches ----- that was after all the intent for this year----- but the results are less than satisfying to me, but still I need to just let it be as it comes out. Does not always help either to get friendly advice, in that when something is done for me, its done. I'd rather try again, later when I'm ready. I do not do well with fixing something that's not quite right. Makes me feel mediocre and like I have to meet some outside criteria. I may or may not post these thoughts. For now I'm just putting them down.

I came back to this about 6 hours later. What is creativity anyway? Who creates? I'd like to think it is God working through me. I do know something is pushing to get born. Sometimes if feels like a hairball, but I hope sometimes it can also be something inspired!  Who decides?

As to creative endeavors the last couple of days, I have created two new neckpieces. One is a tri-colour freshwater pearl necklace.

.The other was a little trickier. I had a curved piece of abalone shell, that I wanted to have as a centre piece with a potato pearl strand across it. It needed something to create contrast, so I put in a caged shell drop on one side. Odd, but it sits quite interestingly on the neck bone.

Lastly, I just finished a piece I call Whale Dreams. I have no idea where it came from, but I guess I was channeling my inner Shaman.  Although there are dark connotations to whale symbolism, I like the interpretation of the whale with the seed of renewal and the flow of the cosmic water of life
Source: The Complete Encyclopedia of Signs & Symbols: Identification and Analysis of the Visual Vocabulary That Formulates Our Thoughts and Dictates Our Reactions to the World Around Us